Day One

This is all new for me, the fact that I'm even writing for public viewing with out having editing it 10,000 times is a big step. Yes, I can't spell if my life depended on it, even this spell check has no clue what I'm trying to say half the times.

I'm going to start off small, use this as a way to self medicate with type therapy. Since I know right now no one is going to read it I feel I can be free with my thoughts. I'm Bipolar, 36, father of 4, I work for my self witch is both good and bad. When I'm balance I get a lot of work but when I'm down... well, you know the story.

Although never classically schooled I do like to draw and I'm creative... then again, when was the last time you met some one with bipolar that was not creative... I guess, the creative mind sits right next to the insane mind...

Right now I'm working on a few kids books that I'm doing both writing and illustrating. */*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/
I even have a professional voice artist record my story and he has it on his site too. It was a big step for me to write a book and now I have over 8 children's book in the works along with a simi-novel. Yes, I would love to see them all in print one day but to be honest I want to do it the old fashion way... Not some vanity press that I have to pay for and then sell my self... wow, what a rip off...

I also do cartoons... I started web-publishing cartoons for the */*/*/*/*/*/ industry back in 2000. After 9/11 I stop drawing all together... I was in ******* watching the live shot on TV... In truth watching it was not the problem since it was from a far and there where no faces with all the horror. Then one of the new programs zoomed up to a woman on one of the top floors hanging out the window... you could see the fear in her eyes. The reporter was talking about efforts to "save trapped people". The they started to pan away when that half the WTC gave way... although you did NOT see her go... you knew she was dead. It was her face that was etched into my mind. I can even now in my minds eyes see her, dark long black hair, soot on her face... well you get it, it was at that second a real face was put into the equation and that the only trigger I needed. Oh... wow... that was weird... I guess I can add that to my list of other PTS issues I have... LOL

Well, to make a long story short, about 6 months ago I started to feel like it was time to go back to my creative outlet. Thats what I started writing my children's books and I picked up my pen to draw again. I rebuilt my /*/*/*/*/*/ site and started doing cartoons again for them. /*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/