Wellness? or just Well?

Hi again, yes it the guy that keeps typing here, I have been away as of late mainly because I have been balanced for the first time in quite a while and i need to get tons of stuff done that the depression has made me put off. Oh that reminds me I for to tame my meds.....brb

Ok took them, the stuff has helped with the depression, but the sleep is another thing... Wellbutrin has a few side effects... one is that it can effect your sleep... not make you sleep... nope but keep you up. Over the last 5 weeks I have been wide awake most every night not getting to sleep till 5 or 6 in the morning and then only getting 3 to 5 hours at most, some time less... well this makes mood to become real snappy... best describe with what I like to call the "Split Milk Syndrome". You know, when some one just blows up over the littlest thing... Sadly some nights that is how I become... and I explode. This can be a scary time and it pains me deeply that it happens... I've been working on trying to control the out burst and it is working but it requires me to avoid people and hide away till I can be calm. I happy to say this week it has only happened two times and i have been able to avoid the other times with success.

My work is picking up and I just got a job last week that paid half the rent and when i got home a check was waiting for me for the other half so I'm happy about that. I also have a $1200.oo job to do on monday that will help us may be find a car. That is as long as I keep working... god we need a car, **** and the kids have been stuck in the house for months... I load the kids up in my little Toyota pick every now an again to go to the store but for the most part they are in the house... this is taking it toll,***** feel isolated from friends and family and she is even talking about moving back up north. I don't think I could ever move back, I build a new business down here and it took 6 year just to get it to pay our bills... The thought of having to start all over is worst then death to me... I just can not see it been good for anyone in the long term... Ya seeing friends
and family will be nice, but then after a few months they will all be back to their lives and we will still be isolated. For her sake I will at least consider it but it is unlikely.

Well, this bring us up to what i have been doing lately, I as you know I'm trying to developed my cartooning skill and branching away from just cartoons about**********. I just enter a cartoon contest call ************l and I will find out if I made the top 12 next month. The top price is a trip to DC to meet and eat with a cartoonist from the New Yorker along with a small cash prize and the cartoon making it's calender.

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MOOD CHART:
right now I'm a well, not to high not to low.. for the most part blanced.